¡§what the?¡¨ Sendoh shouted.
Rukawa was already out of the car. Sendoh got out,
too.
¡§ Sendoh, what are you trying to do? I love Kaoru
..i love HER!!¡¨ rukawa shouted.
He hated Sendoh for what he had try to do
(espressing his feeling). Indeed, he sort of like Sendoh,
too. In fact, Sendoh is the only one he could rely to, and
through out the weeks Sendoh became more than a friend, he
realised that because the feeling now is just the same
like two years ago when he started to fall for Kaoru. But,
it just can¡¦t..can¡¦t..because he love Kaoru, Kaoru!!
Not only disappointment but anger ran into Sendoh,
¡§why? Why? Rukawa what past is past.. i know you love
Kaoru but you are no longer together,for god sakes you had
no idea where she is..why?¡¨
¡§I...you don¡¦t understand,¡¨ rukawa had no idea
what to say.
¡§tell me,you honestly feel nothing for me?
Nothing?,¡¨ Sendoh couldn¡¦t hold it much longer, he
needed to know.
¡§ I...¡¨Rukawa is even more lost.
¡§then what? You feel guily towards Kaoru if you
be with me...i¡¦m losing to a girl inside your brain.
Someone not even here...i f there was someone you¡¦re
going out with, at least i know what i¡¦m up against..at
least i understand..but this..this is just plain dumb!!¡¨
Sendoh fired some more.
¡§ you don¡¦t understand, me , Kaoru is something
special, so what if i want to live in a world of my own.
Me, Kaoru had our own world inside my heart that you would
never understand,¡¨
Rukawa felt hurt saying that towards Sendoh, he
love him,too but what he says is truth, Kaoru is something
special, something you just can¡¦t replace.. for he once
loved Kaoru more than anything else, his first love, and
Sendoh ...could he ever replace...could he love Sendoh
more than Kaoru? For now, he doesn¡¦t know the answer.
¡§i understand..i could never live in your world.
Not that i can¡¦t just that you would not let me into it.
I love you, Kaede but i¡¦m so sad and sorry that you can't
say the same to me,¡¨ with that Sendoh walked away into
the dark and left Rukawa alone.
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More than a week past, Sendoh was sitting in his
office. How he missed the basketball game he had with
Rukawa, the dinner after the game, the angry face of
Rukawa everytime he beats him in their one on one. He
smiled recalling back all those memories, he even remember
the first day he met Rukawa in his office, how Rukawa lost
his temper and burst out of the room. Then, he frown..as
he remembered back the incident more than a week ago. He
never see Rukawa since then. How he missed him.
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Today basketball practice was cancel, all the team
members were going out to a pub for a drink, though was
always advice alcoholic drinks are bad for atletes like
them but a glass will never harm them. They urge Rukawa to
come along. Rukawa was in his moods again.. which was
surprising to them as they had never seen it for the past
few weeks, thought that all the appointment with a
pshychiatrist was doing him good but now...Onizuka tried
asking Sendoh about it but Sendoh wouldn¡¦t spill a single
word.
¡§come on Rukawa drink up,¡¨ urge Onizuka.
¡§what¡¦s on your mind these days my friend? We're
kinda worried you know,¡¨ asked Yutaka.
¡§nothing,¡¨ Rukawa replied coldly and that ended
all the conversation.
He was still thinking of Sendoh. He don't know why
but he can¡¦t get Sendoh out of his brain. He's been
thinking about him ever since the incident more than a
week ago. What exactly is his feeling towards Sendoh, he
was really hurt when Sendoh walk away that day, and the
feeling playing basketball without him is just different.
Does he really love Sendoh? Yes, he does but does he love
Sendoh more than Kaoru?
¡§hey, i loved this next song. The lyrics are
quite good not that i fancy boy bands and stuff,¡¨
¡§huh?¡¨ Rukawa caught that sentence.
¡§what¡¦s the song?¡¨ Rukawa suddenly asked,
surprising everyone.
¡§ ¡¥This I Promise You¡¦ from N¡¦sync¡¨ Onizuka
answered.
The song Sendoh was talking about. The song he
called me to listen. He remembered, ¡§next time you hear
it, listen to the lyrics¡¨ that¡¦s what Sendoh said. He
quickly paid attention to the words though the song had
started playing already and the first few lines were
missed.
I¡¦ll be your strengh
I¡¦ll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it¡¦s gone
The one you should call was standing here all a long
And i will take you in mine arms and hold you right
where you belong
Till the day my life is through this i promise you
This i promise you
I¡¦ve love you forever in lifetimes before
And i promise you never will you hurt anymore
I give you my word, i give you my heart
This is a battle we won
And with this vow forever has now began
Just close your eyes each loving day
And know this feeling won¡¦t go away
Every word i say is true
This i promise you
THIS I PROMISE YOU.
Rukawa cried.
¡§don¡¦t forget i¡¦m the one who told you to
listen,¡¨ he remembered Sendoh¡¦s word.
This song was meant to sing to him by Sendoh. He
finally realised how much he love Sendoh, how important he
is, the one and only person that could ever taken Kaoru's
place, the one he love. He wipe of the tears and smile,
the song touches him greatly. He need to find Sendoh.
Everyone else thinks Rukawa is beginning to act
weirdly and worried even more.
¡§i need to go,¡¨ Rukawa stood up and began to
leave.
Two men entered the bar as he was leaving.
¡§did you saw, there is a man trying to commit
suicide on top of a tall building few blocks away,¡¨
¡§yah, and there seems to be a pshychiatrist
trying to persuide him not to do so. Both of them sitting
on the eage of the building, one slipped and..wew..i don't
even want to think about it, boy is that pshychiatrist
brave,¡¨
¡§yah, and his hair, all up towards the sky, haha.
..in fact that¡¦s the only thing i could made out of him
since they are so high,¡¨
Rukawa know exactly who that pshychiatrist is....
Sendoh!!!
He quicky rush to the spot and as he reach there
he saw a figure falling downwards from a twenty story
building(^^ high enough?).
¡§ NO!!!!!!!¡¨ Rukawa shouted, not now, just when
i realise how much i love you, Akira.
¡§no, it couldn¡¦t be....,¡¨ Rukawa said to
himself.
¡ãTo Be Continued¡ã
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